Well, I did get outside…

Holy cow did I struggle with my run this morning. my lungs apparently do not like chilly air at all. I had my inhaler with me thank goodness! Then as I am running my allergies kick up and my nose starts running, coughing begins and my sinus’ start draining. YUCK! I ended up going for a bit over 3K in 25 minutes doing  walk to run intervals, then I decided that I couldn’t take it anymore. Running outside is hard, on my lungs and allergies that is. I did find though that my legs and feet were far better off than they are after putting in my 5k on the treadmill. The time passed quite a bit faster, I thought I was throwing in the towel too soon but once my Nano voiced the time to me I realized it wasn’t just 10 minutes so I didn’t feel so bad. Easing into this is something that I am going to have to do, oh and take an allergy pill afterwards.

To sum it up here are my pros and cons of outdoor running:
Cons:

• Lungs hate cool air
• Allergies and no tissue
• Couldn’t breathe because of both of these things

Pros:

• Time passed quickly
• Less pain
• Scenery

I think that in time the cons will work themselves out. it will take some adjustment, maybe will have to stick with intervals for a while but I will get to the 5k in no time, I hope

After my grueling run I did my Pump workout, had breakfast, then started yard work. Next I went and purchased more plants for the yard, came back and started ripping out shrubs and HUGE, well rooted bushes (I planted then five years ago), showered, went to dinner with my in-laws came home and finished ripping out shrubs and bushes. I have everything now measured out and started placing the plants where I want them to be so I can get them in on Sunday. I just gave up on the yard for the night. It just got to dark and I am all sorts of sore. I think the tub is calling my name. And with only getting under 2 hours of sleep last night I am a bit worn out. Boy, do I wish some days had more hours in them!

Wedding tomorrow so I better go get cleaned up and get some sleep, have to get up early and get Emma ready for a game, squeeze in a run, Pump, then shower and get ready for the festivities. I have an awesome looking tank top/sports bra farmers sunburn, should look sexy with my one sleeved dress! HAHA!

Tuesday Morning Weigh in is Postponed

Meet Max I blame this 20 lb behemoth cat for my scale issues.

Last night I got on the scale (it was around Midnight so it technically was not cheating and weighing in early), it said 164! So excited, then this morning it said 164, then 189, then 200, then 169, then 172. So yeah, I have no idea what I weigh. I did go grab my old scale that was weighing me heavier and it said 168. So I think I am going to go buy a new scale today and weigh back in after. I swear my huge cat sleeping on it all the time messed it up. I flipped it over and noticed that the legs on it were jamming up, so there is the issue. I wish I still had the box and receipt so I can just exchange it. I haven’t had it that long. But oh well. It is what it is and it is a jacked up scale. All I know is that there is no way in hell I gained 29 pounds in a week! I really don’t think there is any way I gained an ounce really. But I will get a new scale and we will see. So I will more than likely weigh tonight and post my results tomorrow morning. I am just hoping those lower numbers last night and this morning don’t leave me disappointed.

I really do think my big cat constantly sleeping on the  scale, jumping on the scale along with his other cat like shenanigans is what has messed the darn thing up. I am so annoyed right now because the stupid scale got me all excited and now I am sure that the numbers are totally wrong, even if I did get them twice (last night and this morning) UGH!!! Anyhow, enough ranting, whining and complaining. All I know is I think I look visibly smaller this week and I want the stupid scale to reflect it. And I am being a big baby right now because I don’t actually know.

I have a super busy day today and company tonight to watch Smash, New Girl and Glee so this will be today’s only post. Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

Does my ass make my ass look big?

Yesterday was rough for me. It seemed that everything I put on make me look like a heifer, even all the new size 12′s I bought last week. How is that there was no weight gain and even a bit of inches lost and I saw myself as fat as I was when I stated all this? Anyhow, everything I tried on I hated. I liked the clothes, but they didn’t look right to me. Being that discouraged made me want to throw in the towel, I had this feeling that all this hard work has been for nothing. Why did I do that to myself? it is not like I wanted to feel that was, self sabotage was not my plan at all. Some of the unhappiness I have been feeling over other things must be wearing me down. Not to worry though nothing is permanent.

So today is Wednesday, it is day 79 of Les Mills Pump, I still love it on day 79 just as much as I did on day one. I am still grateful that I gave it a go. If there were live classes around here I would get a gym membership in a second. I think that I am finally to the point where I don’t feel too fat for group fitness. Shyness is something that really came with weight gain. I am getting back to my more open outgoing, who give a damn what you think self again, I know it sounds strange after the first part of this blog. Yesterday was a rough day for some reason, that’s all.

The carpet people are coming to measure today! I went and confirmed what color and pile I wanted, sugar cookie.  Why is it that I always like the most expensive of everything. Even before I have a clue what the price is I always find that I gravitate to items of a higher cost? I must have good taste I did find a new chair I really liked. I need to find a couple more I like so there are choices. And no luck on a TV/media stand. I think we need to make the two-hour trek to Ikea maybe. Haven’t even started looking for shelving for the archway wall.  The house is a huge mess. Furniture all over, the stuff from the walls strewn about which leads to making more clutter. How does that happen? Things will be in order soon enough. I can’t wait for the living room, Purple room (sitting and treadmill room right now but soon to be an office), steps and hallway to have it’s pretty new floor coverings!

Time to get going with my day. The kiddo is off to school, time for me to get going on part one of my workouts. I am super starving today, I can’t wait to eat breakfast. I don’t think I got me calories in to calories out ratio right. I had a major calorie burn yesterday, just about 1000 cals! That must be why I am starving.

Just one more random thought. I really, REALLY want a sashimi lunch from Hello Sushi. If they were open right now that would be my breakfast. I have been craving sashimi for a week now at least!

Have a great day everyone!

 

I want a do over!

Got up this morning and got Emma off to school as usual. I got half ready to make my pre-run breakfast. I didn’t get any further along. I maybe slept two hours last night. Between the storm freaking out the dog and me having a hard time falling back to sleep I may of been better of just staying up. Tico my beagle mix is usually never afraid of storms, the cracks of thunder that freaked him out must of sounded like fireworks or gun shots. Those two things scare the pee out of him, literally. My bed is screaming my name, loudly. Thinking of answering it’s call. Working out with no sleep is not good and I don’t want to take a day off just because my dog was freaked out. Round one is so close to being done, now is not the time to mess it up! So back to bed I go for a two hour nap and some much needed sleep. My body needs it, my run and Pump Extreme kicked my butt (in a great way) yesterday.

My Scaredy Beagle

The “fat’ Mom.

Have you ever went to a function and left really feeling like a whale? That was me today. Why is it that the dumbest things can get us thinking and in negative ways. Why is it that we feel the need to fit in or get jealous?

My daughter had her first game today, and sitting on the bleachers with all the other Baseball Moms really made me feel like crap. I was the “fat” mom of the group. UGH.  No one said, did or acted in any certain way to make me feel self conscience at all. Just them all standing there drinking their sugary hot chocolates and eating candy while being stupid skinny while I sat having water with a side of water and was fat. Everyone was making plans to go get ice cream and burgers after. I was invited but I passed. Went home and had more water and some chili with tons of veggies. Now it’s time to get some exercise Les Mills Pump and the Treadmill are expecting me today. I’d rather be social and go eat junk food and be skinny like everyone else. But alas, I can’t, time to put on my big girl panties and get the heck over it.

I know that this sounds very childish and whiny but I can’t help it. No one can be confident 100% of the time. I am sure I will get over it in no time also. Just had to vent!

On another note. Emma had a blast at her game! And I got her some ice cream after. Got to live vicariously through her.

Tuesday Weigh in Week 9 *sigh*

It is that time again. I’ve got my scale and tape measure handy and I am ready to go. I am not sure how accurate anything will be this week. I have some MAJOR bloating issues and still have a pot belly going on, swollen from my stomach to thighs (I can feel the fluid, yuck). My Fibromyalgia is flared up pretty badly. I feel foggy and things that should be easy are getting more and more confusing. I went to Zumba last night and wow, did I have a really hard time catching on. I did 100 times better last time, and that was my first go at it. Oh well, I did my best and worked up a really good sweat. That is all that matters. Right now I am hoping this fog, the bloat and the elevated pain passes quick. I am definitely going to have to tone down the weights for now. I really hope it doesn’t set me back to far. Ah, the life of a cripple.

I had to go pant shopping yesterday, needed some dress slacks for a Showing this afternoon. I hate shopping when bloated, makes finding things harder. I was still able to buy a size 12 though. So I was happy.

Let me hop on the scale and get this done and over with:

• Chest: 36 inches  (- 0 inches)
• R Arm: 12 inches  (- 0 inches)
• L  Arm: 12 inches (- 0 inches)
• Waist: 32 inches (- 0 inches)
• Hips: 41 inches (- 0 inches)
• R Thigh: 24.5 inches (- 0 inches)
• L Thigh: 24.5 inches (- 0 inches)
• Weight: 171 pounds (-0 pounds)
• Pant Size: 12
• BMI: 29.9

Well, that wasn’t as bad as I though it would be, all the bloat sits above and below where I measure. How convenient! So no change this week. Not exactly pleased but I will accept it and move on. I think I need to step up the cardio or go a little stricter with the diet so I can get some sure changes for next week. Hoping it will clear out this water weight I am carrying around right now. I really dislike weeks with no change they feel like set backs and are disappointing. It is the beginning of a new fitness week for me so time to change that!

Have a great Tuesday everyone.

 

I Had A Dream That…..

Now I am going to sit here and feel sorry for myself while reading food blogs and looking at sweets on pinterest.

B**** I’m 36 months pregnant. Really?

Who pissed in my Cheerios today? So far it seems the entire world….

So I woke up today cranky as all get up. I have never been one to be a morning person so a slight amount of temporary crankiness is not all that unusual. But today, watch out. I feel like ripping the first person who looks at me sideways’ head off. I am so tired. I think I may die. Seriously! I have on average getting three and a half hours of sleep a night for a while now, so I am always tired. I am constantly sore and feel like my body does not recover from my workouts and I think this could be lack of sleep. So I am moody from the constant aches on top of my Fibromyalgia being flared up right now. I hate waking up on the wrong side of the bed. why the heck do they call it that anyhow? Wrong side? Do I have another option? Should I try to climb over the dog then over  my husband and see if that puts me in a better mood because getting to the other side of the bed is like going through an obstacle course. I don’t see that starting my day in a sunny disposition. You try it and let me know how that works out for you. Anyhow here is my morning. Woke up tired and sore, Emma was hard to get up and a pain in the butt (this is rare), the bus came early so I sent her running like a mad child to the bus stop with book bag and coat in hand. I may of just won the mom of the year award for that one. Note the sarcasm. Then I decided to try to take a nap for an hour, didn’t work two of the three cats needed cat food or they were going to die at that moment apparently. UGH.

Then I once again for the billionth time get asked if I am pregnant. No bitch I am just fat. Really?? I do not look pregnant. I may not be the size zero/one I was 15 years ago but damn. I hate this question, it started happening on a regular basis about the time of my high school reunion. My being a size 6 at the time apparently meant I was knocked up or popped out a billion babies because compared to when I was 17  I was fat. Piss off  people really. It just got worse as I got bigger. Then people would say after told I was not with child and had one x amount of time ago.. Oh you had a baby it isn’t your fault you got fat, I started modeling again weeks after giving birth. It was not that and even then I was a size 6. Whoop tee friggin do. So I was a stick figure as a child and teen. Doesn’t mean that I would of always been one. And I can tell you now. I am working my butt off to get into shape. But no way will I push myself to be a certain size or weight. Granted I have goals set, but I didn’t put them in stone.  Oh and the amount of work I have put in over the course of a year to go from a 20 to a 12 you basically mock when you ask stupid ass questions like that. The follow up question usually is after all that and I rudely tell someone I am pregnant with a hundred babies or years along in my pregnancy is how did you get so fat? None of your business, but if you must know, illness, bed rest, broken bones, surgeries, steroids, lyrica, all the fun stuff that just happens. I’m over it so why don’t you leave me alone to go sulk now that you think I am fat enough to be knocked up. Walk away before I knock you out.

Whew, I feel much better now.

Now that that is all cleared out on to something I am happy about. Nothing big I was just excited to log on last night and see that my little blog here has had over 1,000 hits. Yay!  It is not a huge deal I know but I thought it was pretty awesome.

This week I did Pump Extreme for the first time. Extreme is friggin’ right. It was one heck of a work out; 55 minutes, over 800 reps, great music, more clean and press (my favorite move), and quite a challenge. I am still feeling the burn, but in a good way. I loved the “team” effort on each track, it changed things up a bit. The only thing that was missing was Asa (she’s my favorite). The banter between Dan and Rachel cracked me up. It’s weird how personalities on a workout DVD can actually not annoy me. Most workout videos I feel the need to poke fun of the trainers or am really annoyed with the high pitched hey look I’m cheery voices or the super scary and creepy perma smiles they have. None of this with the Les Mills Pump workouts. Thank goodness!

Well, onto the rest of my day and I am not cranky anymore after my venting it out on here. I have errands to run, food to eat and workouts to do.

Week 7 Check in and Bonus Recipes.

First of all thanks for the shout outs maranack http://marianck.wordpress.com/ and lose it bighttp://loseitbig.wordpress.com/ . My wordpress/blogger support group is the best! Check out their pages when you get a change. Good reads ya’ll.

Oh joy, it is once again Tuesday so I once again am required by some law in my own head that I should babble on about random topics and then tell the world what I weigh and how many inches I measure. But I don’t mind. It has now become more of a habit than a chore for the most part.

So what shall I babble on about today? I think I will start with the status of The Color Run (my first 5k) I went on at the assigned time to register to find out they moved the registry two more weeks away. Meh, I was slightly peeved for a second then realized it was a silly thing to be bothered by. Then later I found that they moved the date and there is a HUGE difference. That would cut off 5 plus weeks for me to get used to the running distances thing. So I better get on it. And given the date half of my team has to drop out. That gives me a huge sad face.  With it being in the midst of wedding season I have a wedding to attend as well as a Bridal shower to which I am the Matron of Honor both the day before the 5k. Still figuring out how I am going to pull off doing both then running. But I am sure I can figure it out.  I always do. It’s one of those things us moms are good at. Spreading ourselves super thin and needed to be two places at once and end the day basking in the awesomeness of success! I am still doing the 5k; it may be more inconvenient, but hell. I said I was going to do it so there is no turning back. I can’t fathom being a quitter before I even start. That kind of attitude will put me back in those size 20’s I wore last year.

I thought that I started Pump Extreme yesterday but it was actually a walking day so I did 35 minutes of step aerobics, walked for 10 and did about 10 minutes worth of abs on the stability ball. I love that thing!  So today is Pump Extreme for real. I am excited to see how it is. Every time I move up to a harder workout I really have to push to make it through but I always make it. Sometimes i cry while working out because it is hard, and it hurts and I am in terrible shape (but working on it). I say those tears are just me shedding extra water weight so bring it on. I am so glad Les Mills Pump is now available for the home. It was just what I needed to get started on sculpting the new and improved me.

Ooo Look, something shiny!

Last nights Dinner

You like that? I so distracted you so you wouldn’t notice I was going to change subjects on a whim. Now let’s move onto one of the most important things in the world. Food!  I have a habit of cooking food and then posting pictures of it on my facebook.  Last night I made Mock Chicken wings, Cheesy Quinoa Bites, Avocado Ranch and Crudités or people who don’t want to sound all fancy schmancy, cut up vegetables.  I was asked for the recipes so I was thinking what better place is there to put them other than my blog?

Mock Chicken Wings:

Ingredients:

2 skinless, boneless chicken breast halves – cut into nugget size pieces

2 Tbsp whole wheat flour or rice flour

1/4 c milled flax

2 Tsp garlic powder

1 Tsp cayenne pepper

1 Tsp

1/4 – 1/3 c Franks Red Hot

3/4 c panko bread crumbs

Preheat oven to 400 F. Mix all dry ingredients minus Panko in a bag. Coat chicken strips in mixture. Put Franks in a bowl and coat floured chicken. Put Panko bread crumbs in a bag and coat chicken. Bake for 25 minutes.

Cheesy Quinoa Bites (I pinned this but ended up making changes to make it work in a 400 degree oven and to my personal tastes and make them a bit lower in calories):

Ingredients:

2 cups cooked quinoa

3 egg whites

1 cup shredded carrot

3 stalks green onion, diced

1 cloves garlic, minced

1/4 cup chopped fresh cilantro

1/4 cup grated Parmesan cheese

1/4 c sharp cheddar

2 Tbsp whole wheat flour

1/2 tsp salt

1/4 tsp freshly ground pepper

1/4 tsp smoked paprika

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Mix everything together and put into greased mini muffin tin, it took about a tbsp each. Bake for 10 to 15 minutes.

Avocado Ranch Dip/Dressing:

Ingredients:

1 Avocado pitted and removed from skin

1/4 c olive oil mayo (I am sure you could use FF Miracle Whip, but I can’t stand the stuff)

2 Tbsp parsley

1 Tbsp dried dill

1 clove garlic

3 green onion stalks chopped up

1 Tsp dried basil

1 Tsp pepper

2 Tbsp skim or rice milk

1/2 Tsp sea salt

1 juice of 1 small lime

Put everything into a food processor and run until smooth, if dip is too thick add more milk until it is the right texture for you.

And if you cannot figure out how to make Crudités you take some veggies and cut them with a knife into pieces and serve raw.

So that was my dinner last night. And, if I must say so myself it was pretty darn tasty! It really helped squash my chicken wing craving. I reheated leftovers and we ate the mock wings and quinoa bites for lunch, both reheated wonderfully. I think I will make a huge batch of both and wrap up small portion for a quick “frozen’ snack to reheat when I don’t feel much like cooking.

Now onto what you all come here for on Tuesdays… the results are in!

• Chest: 36 inches  (- 0 inches)
• R Arm: 12 inches  (- 0 inches)
• L  Arm: 12 inches (- 0 inches)
• Waist: 34.5 inches (- 1.0 inches)
• Hips: 42.5 inches (- 0.5 inches)
• R Thigh: 25 inches (- 0 inches)
• L Thigh: 25.5 inches (- 0.5 inches)
• Weight: 173 pounds (- 1 pounds)
• Pant Size: 12
• BMI: 33.4

So I am down a total of 2 inches and 1 pound this week, now I am getting closer and closer to my 90 days. I am excited to see what the overall totals will be! On to week 9! Now I better get moving my cat has been staring a hole through my head for the past half hour. I think she is ready for some kibble. I did hear once before that you should feed your pets. Guess I will give it a go.

Did you take your vitamins?

Do we really need to take vitamins and supplements? For the most part no, if you are healthy and have a well-rounded diet you should not have vitamin deficiencies.

Men and women did live for thousands of years without vitamin pills. So I am sure that in this day and time the human race can handle not having supplements. We don’t need artificial forms of a vitamin anyhow. If it isn’t really found in nature why do we need it in our bodies? We just plain don’t. I choose to take vitamins for my own reasons but I always do my research to be sure what I am buying is a real from nature derived supplement (or as close to it as I can) Minus the Vitamin B shots I get from my Neurologist. I just trust the fact that she is a health professional and I just get the darn shots without asking where the vitamins in them came from or what the delivery system is.

I doubt he is dragging her to the local health food store.

No matter have many vegetables and fruits I eat, no matter how clean I eat and how rounded my diet is I always have low vitamin levels. My body doesn’t have the ability to absorb vitamins especially B and D vitamins. I have Hypochlorhydria, it is basically a lack of stomach acid. It took years to figure it out.  After extreme low levels of b and d vitamins in my body for so long I suffered damage to my nervous system, cellular damage to the pancreas and thyroid as well as loss of vision in one eye. So under a doctor’s supervision I take massive amounts of B3, B12, B6 and D3. If people see me take my vitamins they find it odd that I take enough to make a man twice my size sick and then I am stuck explaining that it is for a reason and it is supervised and no it is not hurting me.

Then there are all the vitamins I feel I need, a daily multivitamin, Glucosamine and Chondroitin, White Willow Bark, MSM, Vitamin C chews and a fiber supplement. I am thinking of adding fish or krill oil to the mix too.  I take the multivitamin just to be sure I get my daily allowances because I never know how much my body absorbed. I take the Glucosamine, Chondroitin and White Willow Bark, MSM and the Vitamin C to help with my joint pain. I have a very high rheumatoid factor so it won’t be long before full on arthritis sets in (I am not getting any younger) I already deal with aches and pains in my joints, I figure I may as well take care of my joints now because it isn’t going to get better. And the Fibromyalgia pain really is enough to cope with. And I get a bonus immune booster with the Vitamin C.  I have read that omega-3 Fatty Acids are a good anti-inflammatory and it also comes with a side of healthy heart function. Now to decide if I want fish or krill based.

So you know if I do not take vitamins I will not die or anything so it is not something I have to do. But vision in my left eye and functioning of some organs is nice to have. I know how jealous people get when I am rocking my sexy eye  patch though. No one in this town can pull of the pirate look quite like I can. ARGH!

Ay you scurvy dog you know you want a piece o' this sexy eyepatch

Changes in my diet as well as taking my vitamins have helped me tremendously. I am off most of my medication for my fibromyalgia. I still am always in pain and always feel fatigued, but not as bad as before. I have regained my vision in my left eye and it has not “went out” on me in a long time. Even my reoccurring Bells Palsy has not flared up in quite some time so I get to stay off the steroids.

Now I eat well, take my vitamins and am working at shedding all the fat I gained while dealing with the horrible medications that blew me up like a whale, while having low thyroid and pancreatic function. I feel more “normal” and finally able to work at shedding off all these extra pounds and moving on with a better quality of life.

Do you take vitamins? What types do you recommend? Fish Oil or Krill Oil, how do you get your Omegas? Let me know in the comments!

Now it is time for some Les Mills Pump Hard Core Abs and 45 minutes of cardio. I am still sore from Pump Revolution yesterday. Oh yeah! Feel the burn.