Have you ever went to a function and left really feeling like a whale? That was me today. Why is it that the dumbest things can get us thinking and in negative ways. Why is it that we feel the need to fit in or get jealous?
My daughter had her first game today, and sitting on the bleachers with all the other Baseball Moms really made me feel like crap. I was the “fat” mom of the group. UGH. No one said, did or acted in any certain way to make me feel self conscience at all. Just them all standing there drinking their sugary hot chocolates and eating candy while being stupid skinny while I sat having water with a side of water and was fat. Everyone was making plans to go get ice cream and burgers after. I was invited but I passed. Went home and had more water and some chili with tons of veggies. Now it’s time to get some exercise Les Mills Pump and the Treadmill are expecting me today. I’d rather be social and go eat junk food and be skinny like everyone else. But alas, I can’t, time to put on my big girl panties and get the heck over it.
I know that this sounds very childish and whiny but I can’t help it. No one can be confident 100% of the time. I am sure I will get over it in no time also. Just had to vent!
On another note. Emma had a blast at her game! And I got her some ice cream after. Got to live vicariously through her. 
You will get there. Nice job avoiding the fatty food!
Just an fyi….fat mom hugs are the best. And….since they were skinny..the froze more. We fat moms have better insulation. Trust me…i know.
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HOneeee! Now here you go sounding like me! We all get a whining fest a week! We both have had ours! Emma is Adorable!!!!
I know how you feel. I felt like that everyday for over a year. Now that I have lost weight I still fell like the fat girl. I get mad when I see people eating sugar and snacks because I know if I did that I would balloon 10 pounds over night!
You know you will get there and yes it takes time. I feel like that sometimes because I am usually the biggest in the crowd and the other day I just read about a friend who started working out around the same time as me and she is sliding into her 8s…boy did that motivate me, but since I love food so much I decided that I want to be able to eat whatever I want I just have to add veggies and fruit in with my meals. So no dieting for me but only 1500 calories for me!!!!Hope this helps..I just don’t want you to miss out on a good burger or that great ice cream. I am staying away from the sweets for 30 days because that should give me enough time to loose that first 10lbs and some great dessert will be my reward…I can’t wait.
Sometimes venting is a good thing because you can get it off your chest. You’ll get where you want to be
Just so long as you do it for you instead of for all those skinny baseball mums 
Never for them