The “fat’ Mom.

Have you ever went to a function and left really feeling like a whale? That was me today. Why is it that the dumbest things can get us thinking and in negative ways. Why is it that we feel the need to fit in or get jealous?

My daughter had her first game today, and sitting on the bleachers with all the other Baseball Moms really made me feel like crap. I was the “fat” mom of the group. UGH.  No one said, did or acted in any certain way to make me feel self conscience at all. Just them all standing there drinking their sugary hot chocolates and eating candy while being stupid skinny while I sat having water with a side of water and was fat. Everyone was making plans to go get ice cream and burgers after. I was invited but I passed. Went home and had more water and some chili with tons of veggies. Now it’s time to get some exercise Les Mills Pump and the Treadmill are expecting me today. I’d rather be social and go eat junk food and be skinny like everyone else. But alas, I can’t, time to put on my big girl panties and get the heck over it.

I know that this sounds very childish and whiny but I can’t help it. No one can be confident 100% of the time. I am sure I will get over it in no time also. Just had to vent!

On another note. Emma had a blast at her game! And I got her some ice cream after. Got to live vicariously through her.

Not to quote Sally Field but.. “They like me, they really like me”

Oh yes, I just went really old school with that one huh? It was the only thing that came to mind. I find coming up with blog titles to be extremely difficult. I get a brain fart every time.

Two days ago I was excited and very flattered to see that one of my fellow bloggers Finding Wonder Woman donned me with an ABC Award. You should go check out her blog. She is new to blogging just as I am, her posts are always informative and relevant, she has an awesome blog name and her about page is amazing (I’m jealous).

My blog is all over the place, and that reflects me wholly, I am always running about doing something different and keeping busy. you never know what I am going to say or do. I’m a strange person. So I make sure my blog reflects that. It has been a surprise to be that quite a few people have really taken to it, and that is very much appreciated. I am so glad that I started blogging two months ago. The blogosphere is an awesome support group. Finding people so easily with your same interests, struggles, and issues is very helpful. Reading about people like me is inspiring and keeps me looking toward my goals. My blog friends have become the best support group ever.

According to the rules of this lovely award I have to list 26 things about me in alphabetical order. 26 things? Whew that is a lot! I didn’t make the rules though so I better get thinking.

1. Animated: I talk with my hands to the point that I get teased for it.
2. Bossy: Being in charge makes me happy.
3. Courageous: It takes courage for me to put my measurements on my blog. It is kind of scary and embarrassing, I do it anyhow.
4. Determined: I will reach my goals one day!
5. Excited to be getting smaller
6. Forgetful: I have no short-term memory.
7. Gassy: Eat as much green stuff as I don’t and try to say you are not too!
8. Happy with my life
9. Impartial to most people’s opinion of what i should be doing.
10. Jack of all Trades: There is n’t much I can’t do if I try
11. Kindhearted to the point I get run over.
12. Loving
13. Mother: See 12
14. Nerd’s wife: I have been exposed to so much Star Trek and EQ over the past 5 years. I should be an expert on the subject.
15. Outgoing
16. Proud of who I am.
17. Quiet when I don’t know you, am uncomfortable or nervous.
18. Ready for change: hence the reason I Blog.
19. Silly: I say some weird stuff and do silly dances in public places. My friends love it because they have no choice.
20. Tasty; Not me personally but I am wiz in the kitchen and make some tasty food, so don’t bite me. It won’t be good.
21. Unarmed: I do not own a gun but I have shot an AR15 and an M 16. I would like to learn how to shoot a handgun.
22. Vivacious
23. Witty: I’d like to think so at least.
24. Xenodochial: It means hospitable.
25. Young: 31 is not old!
26. Zoo keeper: We have a zoo in my house. I dog, 3 cats, one bearded dragon, and 3 hermit crabs. (and crickets to feed the beardie)

Now I need to give out my nominations to three other bloggers. This is tough because I love so many blogs and I have already given out other awards before.

1. Girl of the Hour: I just started reading her recently and love her. She is determined and honest, has a great out look and point of view on fitness. Check her out! She is new to blogging just like me
2. Enter, Fitness!: Another new blogger. She is upbeat and willing to work hard to reach her goals. She puts it all out there and is accountable for her progress. I think that she is doing a wonderful job and I love our little comment chats
3. A Curvy Girl’s Journey: She is brave, I can’t put up before, after, during pics because I am not ready and there she is, doing it. I really admire that. Her blog offers inspirational quotes,, honest experiences as well as insight to her life and journey to fitness.

So everyone go give these ladies a read!